Self-control – it is the root cause of my biggest weakness, my inability to control my mouth. Both what comes out of it, as well as what goes in it.
Oh sometimes I have great words of wisdom and much kindness to bestow. And then I come face to face with incompetency, and another side of me comes out. It’s a side that I don’t want anyone to see. It’s ugly, and it prevents me from being the light that He desires me to be.
Lately I find myself coming back again and again to the “fruit of self-control”. I think that I avoided pursuing this fruit of the Spirit precisely because I thought I had a pretty good handle on it. I am a very determined person with a lot of will power. In every job I have had, I have doubled, if not tripled my job description, because I know how to get things done.
I now realize that this is not the “fruit of self-control” that Paul is talking about in James. Now there is nothing wrong with using your gifting (we can and we should!) But when it becomes a matter of will-power, a reliance on self, then it is exactly the opposite of what God asks of us. (See my last post on that “Fixing Myself“).
The “fruit of self-control” is purposely submitting your will to Christ’s will. Letting Him take root in your heart, thereby yielding a fruit within you that then gives you the strength you need to be able to say yes to God and no to self.
So now I find myself praying daily for the fruit of self-control to be greater manifested in me. That I would no longer be “self” controlled, but that I would submit my will to Him and let Him alone remake me.
Seeking the fruit of self-control…seems crazy, but that gives me peace.
“For God did not give us a spirit of fear and timidity, but a spirit of power, discipline and self-control” 1 Timothy 1:9.
“Seek peace and pursue it” Psalm 34:14b