I’ve been walking with the Lord for a long time. I was literally born on the pearl of great price, I didn’t have to go looking for Him, He found me.
(If you missed part 1, you can find it here)
I received the Holy Spirit when I was 7 or 8 at Summer Camp. So young, it seems crazy now, but I know what happened that night. 30 years later, and it would be easy to just take it for granted, to stifle it, or to hoard Him for myself.
But the truth is that the Holy Spirit was given to us for a purpose; to make Christ known. The disciples, when they received the Spirit, they were changed men. They didn’t say, “Thanks! Let me got back to my life now.” No, they poured into the streets preaching His name; they traveled around the world sharing the gospel. You could not keep them quiet.
And I heard Him asking, would I do the same, would I say?
“Yes Lord. Anything. Absolute surrender. You have my heart.”
Could I say such a prayer and have it be more than just empty words? YES LORD, ANYTHING! The thought both shills me to the bone in fear and yet fills me with such a deep longing and unspeakable joy.
But I’m not 20 anymore. I know what the cost of saying such a thing means. Last time I prayed that, it meant leaving my home, the family that I love, and still 14 years later He hasn’t called me back there. But even knowing that, would I dare to say it again, and again, and again – not just today, but every day of my life, for as long as I live. When I’m 40, 50, even 90 or 100.
Don’t be fooled into thinking that a time of absolute surrender is reserved for when you are young and naïve and have no idea what that really means. Abraham was about 116 when he was called to absolute surrender, and I believe that God is ever-calling each one of us, to a life of absolute surrender, no matter your age.
True surrender isn’t reserved for emotional moments during retreats and mission trips. In fact, I would venture to say that true surrender can only be manifested when the rubber hits the road. In the monotony of every day life. Requiring no less than that one pick up their cross daily and follow Christ.
It’s not a feeling. It’s not an emotional response. It’s also not one of absolute perfection. It’s the yielding of your very soul to Christ. And when you do, the Holy Spirit, God Himself will fill it. He will come.
Yet even knowing all that, I still find myself holding back what’s mine….you can find the last installment at: You Have My Heart – The End or the Beginning